Change

Why do people have to change? Ever had a best friend that whenever you were with them you were on the top of the world? You knew that everything was going to be okay as long as you had them in your life? Then days pass by and life changes...that person changes. And all you want is a wish for things to go back the way they used to. You wish to go back when you were younger when things were so much more simple...you didn't have to face all the heartache that today brings. Where did time go? It's like everything feels like one big dream right now.

Lord please give me strength to Trust you. It is so hard!!

Psalm 139:23-24

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life."
Psalm 139:23-24
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So tonight my best friend pointed out Psalms 139 to read, and I love it. Especially these last verses. I know that I mess up consistently on a day to day basis and I am no where near perfection...I am a sinner with a filthy record and I am in need of a Savior. A Savior who can redeem me with His grace and search my heart and my life and cleanse it with his Holy Spirit. God is willing and so able to wipe away our pain and our mistakes, we just need to be willing to let Him...we need to be willing to lay it all down and let Him cleanse us. Doesn't that sound so refreshing? God can cleanse us. Think about all the things you have done that you may regret. All the things you said or thought that you know were wrong. All the things that you would be embarrassed if other people found out. Well the God of everything wants to forgive us! All we have to do is confess...lay down our pride and let Him purify us!
Jesus, here is my heart. Please cleanse me of all unrighteousness and show me areas of my life that need some refreshing. Show me how to be more like you and teach me right from wrong. I know I mess up and I am constantly battling my flesh and my worldly desires but give me your Holy Spirit and the strength to win the battle. May my life shine brightly for you...I love you Jesus, Amen.

TGIF!!

Sooo I am really glad it is Friday-time for the weekend! It has been a pretty tough week emotionally and I need to just give it all to God. HE is in control and only HE can give me the peace, rest, and assurance that I need. I don't want to worry anymore but just trust Him (even though it is not always easy, I have to keep reminding myself to!) and let Him guide my life. So many times I find myself longing for someone to comfort me and be there with me and I forget about God and how he is right here. Even though I cannot see him, He is there. Listening, watching, and speaking to me through his Holy Spirit. I just need to listen more and focus on Him.
But anyways...today I took the girls to lunch at Freebirds and then we went driving around for 30 minutes looking for this awesome park with a duck pond (we were gonna feed them) but I couldn't find the park! So we ended up going to one by our house and we took pictures because at the end of the summer we are going to make a scrapbook of all our memories. I love those girls!















Also a couple weeks ago I had a phone interview with a modeling agency called SCW Promotions and Modeling. Today, I got a call back and they offered me a contract with them. I am so excited, I talked to the lady for almost an hour and it seems like such a cool opportunity. I have my first photo shoot with the photographer in August to create my portfolio before I start any jobs.

Along with that I am studying for my Personal Training certification under the Cooper Institute in Dallas. I have this huuge binder with all this information and there is so much stuff I have to know. I plan on taking the exam the beginning of August and if I pass it (pray for me!) I will finally be a certified fitness trainer!!
But anyways...that is a little bit of an update on my week and my life right now...just going to take it easy the rest of the night...relaxing in my super comfy bed with my candles lit...i LOVE candles! Everyone have a great weekend!!

Friends

Lately I have been looking back at my life and realizing the importance of good friends. Friends who love you for who you are, not what you have. Friends who support you and lift you up when you feel lost and confused. Friends who will pray with you, pray for you, and encourage you to keep on praying. Friends who offer advice that is true and of the Lord. And friends who will walk together with you throughout this journey of life. Friends who keep you accountable and help you draw closer to the Lord. That is the type of friend I always prayed for.

Throughout my High school years I struggled with finding this type of friend. The girls I saw around my campus were pretty girls with a pretty face but what they did on the weekends was not attractive. Many of them settled. They settled on things like partying, drinking, drugs, and sex. I came from a small private school, so this was all pretty new to me. There were times where I could of come so close to settling for all of that and giving in to a unsatisfying way of life but I knew it wasn't worth it. I did make some bad decisions during those years and when I think back today, it would of been a lot easier if I had had a solid group of girl friends. I went through most of my high school years feeling pretty alone and didn't feel like I fit in. I was a Christian girl and my morals and my love for Christ meant more to me than settling for "friends" who would lead me down a path of destruction.
It says in 1 Corinthians 15:33 "Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character." and also in Matthew 7:15 "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it."
First of all, the Lord warns us that if we spend the majority of our time with those who are constantly living in sin and returning to the same old ways...then that will change our character. Who your closest friends are will determine who you really are. Also He warns us that there are two gates in life. The first one is narrow and hardly anyone takes that path. The second is wide with many people but that gate leads to death. Even though it may be harder to do the right thing and stay on the narrow path...in the end the reward is eternal and abundant life.
I encourage you all to examine who your close friends are. If you have a passion to take it a step further in your relationship with the Lord you must surround yourself with like-minded friends, not people who are constantly dragging you down with them into sin. I am not saying to abandon those friends...still love them like Jesus does and share them the truth and the light. But remember what God says, "Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in Him."

Stars and Stripes

I hope everyone had an amazing 4th of July! Thank you to all the soldiers out there who serve our country and keep it the land of the free and the home of the brave. My day consisted of some up's and downs. The day started off as my sister, my friend Sarah and I headed out to Granbury to my dad's for a cookout. My other older sister and brother were there and we had lunch and just hung out. We decided to stop by the town square and walk around and see all the vendors and arts a crafts.....however, it wasn't the best idea because it was like a bagillion degrees! As we drove home, I started feeling very lightheaded and sick...my sister had to pull over and I am sure you can imagine the rest. :/ (food poisoning) So I got home and was sick for a while...buut I really wanted to go see Fireworks...I mean, hey it's the 4th of july you can't miss fireworks!! So I bravely decided to go and hoped I wouldn't get sick again. We went to Colonial to meet up with some friends and watched some amazing fireworks. I have never seen fireworks so close...they were literally right above us...SO COOL!

Today consists of resting and taking it easy with my girl Sarah...Here are some pics from yesterday!

Power Struggle

Watch the Sermon @ http://www.lifechurch.tv/watch/once-upon-a-marriage/2

So I have been spending time with the Lord tonight and I decided to watch another one of Craig Groeschel's sermons from his series "Once Upon a Marriage." I encourage you all to clink on the link above this post and watch it. It has really opened my eyes and taught me a lot about relationships. Craig talks about how so many times the woman can be the controlling one and the man is passive in their relationship. He becomes relaxed and lets his wife take control of everything and his God given role of leadership is diminished.
One thing that really stood out to me that Craig mentioned is that, "a godly woman can make a weak man stronger; a controlling woman can make a weak man weaker." As a woman belittling your man with your words can tear down and make him weaker. "No man has ever crawled out of the constant complaining of his wife a better man." Our role as women is to build him up and reward him for leading us. The husbands role is to be the provider and be financially stable for the both of them. He must also lead as her protector; protect her heart and her emotions. He is also the pastor which means that he sets the spiritual tone and direction for his family. When a man leads in a relationship (provider, protector, and spiritual leader) then the woman can follow and build him up.
I know I am not married or anything but I believe that this is something that everyone needs to learn now whether married or single. When I think back I know that I have been the controlling woman rather than the godly woman. I pray that the Lord would work on my heart and teach me how to practice the ways of a godly woman...that I may learn how to submit to a man's godly leadership someday and be the encourager and supporter.

My Prayer

"Praying for you"
by
Anna Jones


I can't get my mind off you...thoughts of when we met keep running around in my head.
Do you know how much I care? Do you know that I want to be where you are?
Even though you hurt me so, my feelings for you remain below.

I pray for you to find your way...
I pray for you to surrender all...
I pray for you to get to know the One who created enduring love.

He is the one who can take this all away...
He is the one who can give us the chance...
Trust, Faith, and Passion live on, in Christ is where this true love remains.

So in this journey don't forget, this girl over here praying for you.
She has the faith in you and God.
She has the hope that can change a sad face upside down.

Run to Him and be reassured, He loves you so and longs for you.
Even though, she wishes she could be with you
She knows inside what matters most
Giving it all to God and letting Him transform the heart.

Maybe someday when all is fulfilled
God will grant a wish
First leading the man
The man will lead the woman
And with Him being the One...the Two will be found...
destiny awaits.

Busy Day!

So today I woke up and went and walked two dogs, a golden retriever named Jack and a border collie named Annie. When I got there the dogs were so hyper and Annie was out of control. I took her first and it was a struggle to get the leash on her...she is still a puppy so she was jumping all over me and what not. I walked her for 20 minutes and then I took Jack. Jack is a huge (kind of overweight :)) but sweet golden retriever. He did pretty good but still wanted to chase after the squirrels and almost pulled me down the hill! Well that was fun haha! After I headed back home to get shower and went over to the girls house. We were planning on going to a movie at 12pm and had to eat lunch first. It was a little after 11 and we decided to make a homemade pizza real quick...and I must say that was the fastest homemade pizza I have ever made! In less than an hour we were able to lay the dough, spread the sauce, sprinkle the cheese and pepperoni, and put it in the oven.
It was delicious I might add and we headed off to Movie Tavern. We made it there right on time to see the movie Grown Ups. It was such a funny movie...Adam Sandler and all those guys are great! When I got home I did my P90x workout then I went and walked the dogs for a second time! Finally made it to the house I am housesitting for the weekend and am exhausted! Just here now relaxing in bed watching some of the movie, The Proposal. I am glad its almost the weekend and am looking forward to celebrating the 4th of July!